And probably a lot lazy... I am finding it hard to keep up the momentum to blog daily.
Maybe I need a challenge or something.
Anyway, I dont expect anyone to be reading since I am not regularly blogging, but here I am anyway.
Life is hectic, frustrating, and it seems like I am going in reverse most days.
My work is a huge cluster. Our department, in fact, the entire facility is at a constant state of unrest and believe me, that is exhausting for me. I have been accused of caring too much by some, and of not caring enough by others. On one hand, I find myself trying to decide if I want to continue to work in an environment that is so messed up, not professional, with people who are unable to even tolerate the slightest bit of stress that an emergency department in a big hospital functions on without drama on a daily basis. And on the other hand, I really love my manager, and I like the small hospital atmosphere that it can provide. So I sit, and I wait, and I hope that some day things will get better. I really wish that the powers that be would understand that there are people in our hospital who are very very good, and there are many who are very very bad...
ok enough about that. Home life is hit and miss. Dana and I work opposite shifts most of the time. His boss has an uncanny ability to predict my schedule and then make him work on his days off. If I want to do something, I usually do it alone.
I am ready for fall, and its still summer here, 90's and higher temps and its ALMOST OCTOBER!!!! something is seriously wrong with this weather.
One good thing thats going on, is that I started a new diet about 10 days ago. I am on the New Atkins and I really love it. I never feel hungry, no cravings and I dont feel deprived about anything. WOOT! down 8lbs so far, yay me!
I am off to read other blogs, I promise to try to blog better in the future!!
Tuesday, September 28, 2010
Monday, September 6, 2010
Someday....
I hope to be sitting on a beach in Hawaii, watching the sunset, listening to this song.
Enjoy my friends...
Enjoy my friends...
Friday, September 3, 2010
Pour Your Heart Out Wednesday,
Or Thursday, or even Friday! LOLOL I have to confess, I completely forgot to post on Wednesday, so here I am!
Pouring my heart out...
I am afraid I am burned out. It does happen. In fact, it happens a lot. I have been working as an ER nurse for 15 years. Before I went to the ER I was working Med-surg, which I enjoyed, as a new graduate nurse I had many good preceptors and mentors who trained me well.
Then I ended up going to the ER. And it became my career. Back in the late 90's and early 2000's it was pretty commonly noted that ER nurses burned out in 8 years. This means I have almost worked 2 ER nurse lifetimes.. and I smell smoke.
My patients do not ever know the level of my discontent. In fact, I enjoy talking to my patients and am commonly told that I must really love my job, when in actuality I dont.
I have thought about this a lot, I hold my practice to extremely high standards because I do not believe that a nurse should be working in emergency medicine without extremely high standards, however I work with many many nurses who just do enough to get by. They dont want to learn, they dont want to listen to those of us who know what we are talking about because they know it ALL.... then they make huge mistakes. And management comes to us to find out how to avoid these mistakes, because we dont make them.
My answer is always the same, our standards of nursing excellence in our department is very low. And until people are held accountable for raising their quality of nursing then mistakes will happen.
I think back to my mentors throughout my ER career, I realize with great pride that I was taught by some amazing women. I have always wanted to pass my expertise and wisdom on to others, they just dont want to hear it, so I keep my mouth shut. And I make sure that MY patients are well cared for, and that I am in no way EVER associated with those who do crappy work. As it stands right now the doctors come to me and treat me like an associate, not like a subordinate. I appreciate their trust, and their confidence.
My desire for my future is to move forward and work in what, I hope, will be a job opening in the upcoming months. I have been working as assistant Trauma Coordinator/Trauma Registrar at our hospital and I would love to move on to the permanent Trauma Coordinator when the economy eases up and the job is available. Please keep your fingers crossed for me, it would really make my life easier!!!!
Pouring my heart out...
I am afraid I am burned out. It does happen. In fact, it happens a lot. I have been working as an ER nurse for 15 years. Before I went to the ER I was working Med-surg, which I enjoyed, as a new graduate nurse I had many good preceptors and mentors who trained me well.
Then I ended up going to the ER. And it became my career. Back in the late 90's and early 2000's it was pretty commonly noted that ER nurses burned out in 8 years. This means I have almost worked 2 ER nurse lifetimes.. and I smell smoke.
My patients do not ever know the level of my discontent. In fact, I enjoy talking to my patients and am commonly told that I must really love my job, when in actuality I dont.
I have thought about this a lot, I hold my practice to extremely high standards because I do not believe that a nurse should be working in emergency medicine without extremely high standards, however I work with many many nurses who just do enough to get by. They dont want to learn, they dont want to listen to those of us who know what we are talking about because they know it ALL.... then they make huge mistakes. And management comes to us to find out how to avoid these mistakes, because we dont make them.
My answer is always the same, our standards of nursing excellence in our department is very low. And until people are held accountable for raising their quality of nursing then mistakes will happen.
I think back to my mentors throughout my ER career, I realize with great pride that I was taught by some amazing women. I have always wanted to pass my expertise and wisdom on to others, they just dont want to hear it, so I keep my mouth shut. And I make sure that MY patients are well cared for, and that I am in no way EVER associated with those who do crappy work. As it stands right now the doctors come to me and treat me like an associate, not like a subordinate. I appreciate their trust, and their confidence.
My desire for my future is to move forward and work in what, I hope, will be a job opening in the upcoming months. I have been working as assistant Trauma Coordinator/Trauma Registrar at our hospital and I would love to move on to the permanent Trauma Coordinator when the economy eases up and the job is available. Please keep your fingers crossed for me, it would really make my life easier!!!!
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